Miracles

2008-09-28T17:18:00.004+08:00

here to clarify that,
1) the lastest post before this is copy&paste from
http://rainbowsandsunshines.blogspot.com

go on, compare & you'll see some extra parts.
& those extra sentence werent at all true.

2) farhanah doesnt own a psp.
father/mother didnt give/bought her a psp.
neither did they bought her a headset.

3) most of the family issues that she post
is so not true.

4) most of the pictures/graphics taken is
extracted from someone else's property.

(:
believe it or not.
its up to you.

must i mention about friendster too?

Home story

2008-09-28T09:10:00.009+08:00

*READ: colours differ the characters.

It has always been like this. He, who never does any work about anything; MIA almost everytime. she, who keeps ordering people and gets haywire + throw tantrum whenever things doesnt go her way. then, situation gets worst. she ask them to do things, they did, he ask her what they were doing, she gets all fuss up, answered in a hasty way, he gets fuck up, started to throw things around. haywire. He went into the kitchen and started to throw the plates and vases. Eventually, she was in the kitchen and the glass pieces hit her. She cried.

she come into the house, hearing loud noise & shouting. he, wanted to take the fan and throw, then she, although her throat is having problems, she yelled and said "no need to throw laa.." he stops angrily, she ran into her room. he went straight into the studyroom. she shouted hastly. she changed her clothes and went out of the house.

every year, it was the same situation. everything was done behind doors. she, who wants it her way and never did negociate. he, who thinks that he's the superior. they, who just sit around and messed up things. & she, always have to sort things out. everybody is giving up.

& when is this going to end? no one knows.

xoxo

everlasting

2008-09-27T20:42:00.004+08:00

Mummy was being very kind and humble today. Because ?
- She was feeling high today, so she gave me 10 bucks.
- She said I was perfect so she insist that I should go out today.

See, I love my dearest mummy very very very much. Hah, I heart today really silly pilly much. Because ?
- I received a token from dearest S.
- Fadliyana and S are happy.
- I found out that the cat loves me. say yay!
- S was being so sweet today.

So, I had a study outing today with close peeps. It was _______ ? Idk la. Err, I met dearest S first. Then went to Fadliyana's block to meet her. And head straight to Tampines Library.

Spent 2hours(?) there, and dearest S had to went somewhere ( was sad at that moment). Then slacked for another 15 mintues and decided to kill time below Fadliyana's block.

Oh, and there were 5 cats roaming below her block. Like omygay la, all of them were so adorable. Furthermore, there's this one particular cat which keeps coming to me. hah, and it slept on my lap for about 5+ minutes. *big smiles

And yeah, I love the token that S gave to me. It was oh-so-sweet of him to make it for me.
I love him x 123456789 or maybe x 987654321. wee, say yay !

Formula for today :
27 September 2008 = happy + sad + enjoy + love
= a happy happy day !

xoxo

screw up

2008-09-26T18:10:00.012+08:00

I miss who I used to be. I miss happiness. I miss my usual smile.
I miss all the good times. I miss everything about me.

Urgh, I know I won't get through this. I'm so uncertain about how I feel right now. uh, I don't want to talk to anyone cause I don't know how to. I don't think my friends understand me. I don't even think I understand myself. I feel like breaking down, really I do.

xoxo

[edit]
I'm not creepy. I'm just different.I wish there was someone around here who can understood that. Someone who I can talk to. Someone more like me.
[/edit]

I'll come and f you up

2008-09-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

I am fuck up with my daddy right now. He blames me for being the reason that he fought with Mummy.Urgh, I don't give a damn shit about him anymore. I won't acknowledge him as my daddy today nor tomorrow.Well, not until he apologise. Fuck it.

Fuck it

2008-09-25T20:22:00.002+08:00

At times,I just wish that I was living in someone else's life. A life hundred times worth living. Just what is wrong with my life? When things are getting better, something, will make everything seems so fucking miserable. Hell yeah.

starry party

2008-09-24T22:29:00.003+08:00

Starboy managed to make me smile today. He is sweet + romantic .

I feel safe whenever I'm around him. I can sleep peacefully on his shoulders. I am able to concentrate on my maths when he is in front of me. I love him, really I do.

I'm not surprise if many girls have fallen in love with him. Or are currently falling for him ?

xoxo

spread your love

2008-09-23T20:23:00.002+08:00

I am trying to love myself,

and to stop being so forgiving.

Starboy <33

f you up

2008-09-22T21:33:00.005+08:00

I am extremely pissed with school. Everything doesn't turn out right. I hate to wake up early in the morning just to finish up all of my due projects and homeworks. Because of that, I keep sleeping in class and I find it hard to concentrate on my studies. I'm not surprise if I have those emotional breakdowns in class again. Urgh, I'm falling apart once more. And whoa, my members can still argue with me when they didn't even do a single piece of shit.
Don't talk to me.

cool shit

2008-09-22T19:31:00.002+08:00

RULES :
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?", YOU SAY ?
Hope has wings - Brie Larson

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOURPERSONALITY?
Two stars - Tess

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL\GUY?
Prettyboy - M2M

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
So good - Bratz Rock Angels

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
All of your love - Hellogoodbye

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I will be right here waiting for you - Richard Marx

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Believe me, I'm lying - Forever The Sickest Kids

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Teenage Love Affair - Alicia Keys -.-

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Too cool - Tess

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Top of the world - Mandy Moore

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Sweetest girl - Wyclef Jean ft Akon & Lil Wayne

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Here (in your arms) - Hellogoodbye

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
No you hang up - Shayne Ward

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
In love - Massari

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Handle me - Robyn

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
True friends - Hannah Montana

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

I was bored and this survey was kinda cool.
So girls and guys, go and try this shit ! :)

stop pretending

2008-09-21T10:41:00.004+08:00

days grow longer and as the time goes by,

things are taking their change.

may love remain no matter how the weather change.

may love remain no matter how tough the life may be.

may love remain no matter how cruel the reality is.

A + S = L

2008-09-20T21:14:00.006+08:00

Had a call from Fadliyana in the morning that she wanted a study outing today afternoon. Then I agreed and I didn't know what I should wear. Mummy said I should use this green dress. But then, it look pretty ugly to me. Then decided to use this white shirt with a long brown skirt.
hah, Fadliyana said it was pretty. :)

anyway, I'm in no mood to go to tomorrow's outing. I'm sick.
Unfortunately, some people had to force me to go.
Thanks a lot. -.-

pretend

2008-09-19T19:45:00.003+08:00

I don't understand love, really I don't.

urgh

2008-09-18T20:29:00.004+08:00

I am falling apart.

adult-ish

2008-09-17T20:18:00.003+08:00

For all you people who say, "I love you" when you have no clue what love is exactly. Something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest?

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him.

-It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off?

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's there?

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants?

It isn't love, it?s LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?

It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt her/him?

It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat?

It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?

It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?

It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?

It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

* * *

Does your heart ache and break when she/he's sad?

Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's strong?

Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?

Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?

Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?

Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret?

Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??

Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life?

This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why? The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE.

It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well. I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past. Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason our soul heal.

* * *

some things are better left unsaid, but then, somehow, after reading this survey,

I realised that, my love for you isnt going to fade away, not for now, not for tomorrow..
somehow, it seriously does break my heart, knowing that you're suffering in your world.

I dont know why, its the feeling you know.

& I want you to know that I'll always want the best for you, for yourself and your life.

And no matter what happens, you know that I'll always be there for you, no matter how far you wanted to push me away, I'll be there wherever and whenever you need me.
I think I've decided now, I'm not going to move on, not yet anyway, not until I see and know that you are moving on to a new life without me. Not until I see that you won't be needing me anymore, not until you had someone new in your life.

whispers.

2008-09-15T22:31:00.006+08:00

When you love somebody that loves you back, they become a part of you. That’s why it hurts so much to let them go. When you love someone that doesn’t love you back. It’s hard to find a way to keep yourself on track. It leaves your heart broken and hurts so deep inside but that’s why it is called a crush.

Momentum.

2008-09-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

Somehow the conversation mentioned your name, and someone asked me if I knew you.

Looking away I thought of all the times we had together.

Sharing laughter, tears, joke and tons more.

And then without explanation you were gone.

I looked to where they were waiting for an answer,

and softly said, "Once, I thought I did.

Reality check.

2008-09-14T22:04:00.003+08:00

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world

that can stop you from crying is exactly

the one making you cry?

Miracles.

2008-09-12T21:04:00.003+08:00

I feel like screaming. I feel like shouting. I feel like crying. I feel like saying sorry. I feel that I'm stupid to not realized what have I done towards people especially to those whom I'm close with. I feel like I don't appreciate things that happens to me. I feel like I don't deserve to have friends like you. I feel like .. urgh , its just too hard for me to explain how I really feel inside.

I love today ! I met S near his school at around 19.10 - 19.15 .
Totally unexpected. Afterwards, he followed me back home.
And accompanied me in the lift. aww, how nice. :)

The saddest love is to love someone,to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them.

FRIENDS. ):

2008-09-11T21:20:00.006+08:00

Earlier post was a piece of shit. I hate my friends. I hate everything.
Especially ____. I can't believe that you actually decided to side him.
Firstly, you help me cheer up, then you said that you were disappointed in me and
you start to use all the negative things about me to bring me down and make me cry(almost). Thanks a lot, sucka. ):
Oh fuck, I realised that I have such great friends that doesn't come in handy when
I just needed a listening ear.I'm disappointed in you guys. (refering to close friends)

Never say goodbye when you still want to try.
Never give up when you still feel you can take it.
Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go.

PERFECT-O

2008-09-10T20:07:00.006+08:00

Everything has been a real mess lately. But thanks to Fadliyana, Best Friend and Yasmin for cheering me up just now. I hate having those emotional breakdowns in class. I'm terribly sorry if I have been so ( like totally ) quiet for the past 2 days.
Now, I finally realised on who to count on when I feel like falling apart. :)
Oh, and special thanks to Yasmin again, for making me laugh till I lost my fucking radiotic voice. -.-

There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch someone you truly love walks away after they have left you. To watch the distance between your two bodies expand until there is nothing left

but an empty space... and silence.

BREAKUP.

2008-09-09T16:07:00.007+08:00

Trust me, I'm not okay. I don't wish to talk to anybody. They can't help me. No one can.
Everybody lies. I don't know who to trust anymore. I don't understand my friends.

I don't even think they do understand me. I don't know what to do now. I'm falling apart. I know I shouldn't have fall for him. But it wasn't my fault. I just didn't want to hurt his feelings. I feel so weak and so alone. Everyone is blaming me. My boyfriend, my friends, my mummy, my uncle, my sister are like ganging up on me. They make me feel as though I'm different than them, as though I'm not a human being, as though everything was my fault. I'm disappointed in my friends. Nobody cares how I truly feel. Maybe, I'm not that important to them anymore. I feel like going to another country now. Start a new life. Forget about my friends. Forget everything.

Its over. so soon.
I know.

BREAKDOWN.

2008-09-08T20:19:00.006+08:00

Personally, I think I should stop caring so much about other people's feelings.
Nobody cares, I know. Sometimes I wonder why some people are just so ungrateful.
When I feel like I'm falling apart, no one is there for me. My close friends, my boyfriend and my englishman. At least the simplest thing that they could do, was ask. But none of them cannot be bothered. I'm so alone now. I want to hold on to someone to make me feel much more stronger, but then again, no one is there for me. I don't see the point of having such great friends if all they could do was pretend I was okay and move on. You guys just don't understand me.

Ask me how many times my heart has been broken and I will tell you to look in to the sky and count the stars.

PAAAAAAAAAART 2 !

2008-09-07T17:52:00.002+08:00

Same old story,everyone knows.
one heart holding on.
one letting go.

LOVEY DOVEY !

2008-09-07T14:29:00.003+08:00

I don't know which one is worse .

missing what we were, missing what we could have been,

or missing how it was before ' us ' .

BOO HOO !

2008-09-06T21:14:00.006+08:00

I'm frustrated. mom is so naggy. I hate being at home, I can't have a peace of mind.
urgh. I don't know why mom treats me differently from my siblings.
Like as if I'm so bad, like as if I'm adopted or what.
My mom and my sister are also like ganging up on me. I feel like running away.
pfft, I'm so pissed. and woah, I prefer school than staying at home with this kind of environment.

eek, my prepaid is low !
and daddy ain't going to top up for me.
boo hoo !
):

eh, 2nd post ! 2nd post !

2008-09-05T17:43:00.000+08:00

SMILEY MILEY !

2008-09-05T15:02:00.002+08:00

" you don't need anybody to help you to be a star,

cause you are already a star to a lot of people . "

- the queen of cool

eek, attitude !

2008-09-04T23:17:00.003+08:00

I SWEAR I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP !

Bby, I dont know what else to say. If this is how you are going to treat me then I'm sorry. Personally, I think I deserve more than this .I dont even know if you really love me.
Boy, I'm not stupid. Dont take away your last chance.

I'm sick and tired + fed up today.
mother fuckers.

backy wacky

2008-09-02T11:44:00.009+08:00

CD trip to malacca was the bomb.
Those bus trips and shopping sprees were satisfying.
Oh, and those prank calls we made. super fun!

First day, visit the ministry of home affairs, (something like home team academy).
Had our breakfast and lunch there. Then there's a demonstration on foot drills, rescue, first aid and stuffs. Personally, their drills were impressive. And they look totally cute when they were suppose to do kanan lurus (?).
Next we head to that particular hotel in the late evening. Then, had our dinner at this nice restaurant.
And went shopping at night. But then, I didn't bought much cause I wasn't in the mood for shopping.

Second day, visit the campsite. It was boring, like totally. Then went for a tour around Malacca.
Between that, had a painful headache. =.=
Luckily someone was there to take care of me. (yay!)
And went for a shopping spree at Mahkota Mall. Super cool. (double yay!)

Third day, ride on that spinning tower. The veiw of Malacca was awesome.
The people below look like ants. And the cars look like those insects. hah, >.<
Had our last lunch together at this chinese restaurant.
And went straight home.

I'm currently having a high fever.
Thanks a lot, Melacca Trip.
-.-

Bon voyage

2008-08-28T22:48:00.001+08:00

Goodbye suckas !
(;

Sympathetic kah ?

2008-08-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

Morning wasn't as bad as the afternoon/evening.
As usual, had my swimming lessons in the afternoon.
Only 3 of my classmates were in my group.
The rest decided to skip. lol
Then 2 of them had to go off early and I was the only one left (?)
Like wtf. I was lonely okay. =.=

Moving on, went to MacD with usual peeps + afiqah.
And guess what ? Fadliyana lost my new sketch book at the swimming place.
Hence, my cd members can't do the total defence thingy today.
I was sad okay. >.<

Sadly, usual peeps had to go home.
Decided to call Yasmin and Jo ee and Zaki.But Zaki couldn't make it.
Had a discussion over the project.And all of a sudden,
there's a guy who look like an idiot/pig, was staring at me from outside the window. 0.= Weird and shocking.

Took 28 home. Fadliyana was a total jerk whereas Yasmin was being such a spoil brat.
Hah, and I was being kinda lame/childish (?)
right. on the way home, met a small fat black primary school boy.
He was so annoying plus he talks to himself.
Surprisingly, he interrupt-ed my conversation with Fadliyana.
He started to say how noisy I was and all that.
Fadliyana was furious, Yasmin kept laughing and I kept on lecturing him.

Me : kao tu budak kecik, sedarkan diri uh..tkmo berlagak uh pat sini.
Him : fine uh, diam ah, diam ah *spits
Me : diam ah, mak bapak tk ajar pe pat rumah ? lu tk de otak peh ?
Him : lu nak cari gaduh ngan gua pe ?
Me : Sorry eh, aku ni tak gaduh ngan budak kecik eh.
Him : aku primary 6 uhh. da besar peh
Me: please eh, aku ni sec 2, mau challenge peh ? kao tu da kecik, buat hal kecik.
Him : *silence
Me: da kalah buat hal kalah. please eh, tkmo cari psl kat sini. buat malu kan keluarga je. jalan sudah..

Then he gave up and went to another vacant seat.
hah, Yasmin still kept on laughing at him and
Fadliyana was like, " budak tu minta kene tampar siol "
Personally, He was so irratating and unkind.
Anyhow spit vulgarities at me and peeps.

ni la, budak budak zaman sekarang.
menyampah !

That part I was angry okay. 0.0

My mathematical mood for monday was :
angry + lonely + sad = unhappy.

No-fun sundays.

2008-08-24T21:04:00.004+08:00

Sunday is suppose to be a FUN DAY,
with all those picnics, zoo trips and stuffs.
And now, mummy is being such a (insertword), all of a sudden.
She's like an army general, trying to mobolize the troops.
=.=

Instead of having a usual picnic in the park/beach,
Mummy decided that today should be " house cleaning day ".
Pathetic, isn't it ?

Now, I had to waste my time on cleaning because of my mummy and her un-fun Sunday.

Oh, did I mention that Englishman and me was being rather strange today (?)
Out of the blue, we were thinking like twins.
Like that old cartoon show, Banana In The Pajamas.
B2 : Are you thinking what I'm thinking, B1 ?

Okay, that was cool shits.
or was it suppose to be freaking lame ?
>.<

Terrible-errible.

2008-08-23T22:18:00.002+08:00

Saturday was terrible-errible.
Group members when below my block to do ipw.
A few minutes later, it started to rain heavily.
Just our luck. >.<

mixed up feelings

2008-08-23T12:53:00.001+08:00

Look, I guarantee that there will be tough times. At some point of time, one or both of us would want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine,
I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me
- Runaway Bride

domo-omo-mo-o

2008-08-22T22:22:00.007+08:00

Amirul A :

Fuck you for being so untrustable.
Fuck you for being such a playboy.
Fuck you for pissing me off just now.
Fuck you for making my throat hurts.
Fuck you for making me shout at you.
Fuck you for being such a lousy friend.
Fuck you for being such a backstabber.
Fuck you for being a good for nothing asshole.
Fuck you for not knowing how to keep secrets.
Fuck you for being so irratating in every single CD training.
Fuck you for all the mother fucking words that you said to me just now.
>.<

You are a lousy piece of shit that nobody wants to be friends with.
pfft.

anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, a particular someone (that i love hor) gave me a domo wallet. OMFG. so freaking cute,
like aaawwwwwwwwwwww, my siblings were deadly jealous.
hah. pity them. ^^

Dion : I'll do it later.
Dion : and hello (?)

3 in 1

2008-08-22T21:23:00.003+08:00

Art articulation was a blast.
Eventhough I think that I didn't dance well enough.
Anyway, It doesn't matter right ? As long as I've done my best.

But before that, every dancer was like " omfg, 5 more minutes left " .
Hah. pressuring siol.
Especially when it comes to 1 of my classmate.
Err. He was like traumatized, cause its his first time on stage (?)
aww, pity him. >.<

Moving on ,
I have been pretty busy for the past 4 days and going to be for the next 2 days.
Speaking of busy,
There's that Mother-Tongue Trail in the afternoon at 1+ yesterday.
It was held around Bedok Interchange.

Had a fight with boyfriend again and again.
I think I couldn't handle it anymore.
Problems within us just cannot be solved. __

Seriously, It isn't my fault that god put me in this kind of love situation.
I didn't even ask for it.
Everything happened just too sudden and unexpected.
I don't think that I'm prepared for anything (at all).

News Flash.
My school has been chosen for the CD trip thingy.
Omfg, I didn't expect us to be chosen.
Furthermore, I'm not ready yet.
But eventually, I found out that sonic is going.
Thank god. (:

How can I not love you when you control my heart?

Super duper outrages secret

2008-08-17T16:27:00.005+08:00

Englishman is being really nice today.
omfg, I still remember this convo we had earlier on.

епgІіѕнмап says:people would tell me that there are alot of girls out there, and ask me why would i choose you.
епgІіѕнмап says:and to me, i've choose the right girl,
епgІіѕнмап says:i simply can't love anyone except you,
епgІіѕнмап says:i'm not a playboy,
Anna says:have you tried liking anyone else ?
епgІіѕнмап says:none other then you,
епgІіѕнмап says:i hearts you, more then just a friend,

Moving on,
There's cd training tomorrow afternoon.
I don't think I would want to go cause I'll be totally exhausted
from all those swimming lessons.
But damn, there's Sir Affan and probably he'll say that the training
is complusory or whatever shit.
>.<

I can't hardly wait till I can finally be with you.

poem-ing

2008-08-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

When you said forever, you only meant a few months.
When I said forever, I meant every day until I died.
When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore.
When I said always, I meant until time ended.
When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl.
When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

Common sense

2008-08-16T18:36:00.015+08:00

OMFG, my face looks like a complete retard.
hah. I know, secondary 1 nye muke semua mcm geek kan ?
Obviously. heh

Change of plans for today.
Decided to go to Fadliyana's place to do.
On the way there, saw Zaki and Ahmas.
Then, all three went below Fadliyana's block to wait for her.
After she went down, had to wait for Joshua and Zhi Ren. =_0

We were like waiting unpatiently for 1hour + for them.
During that, had fun playing with Zaki's new phone.
Hah. Then we went to the nearest mini mart and bought snacks.
Seriously, we were like having a picnic under the block.
Kinda fun.

In the end, both of them came late. >.<
Then, all end up slacking. Our group didn't even do a single thing.
Amazing uh satu satu.

Okay, fuck.
I have to start mugging now before my parents start nagging.
watever uh.

Rachel Lee : hah. Happy Belated Birthday, slut !
Rachel Lee : relinked.

Syafiqah : I know, the song very nice right. okay, lol

Nichelle / Jodi / Kitty / Englishman : thanks

One-sided love

2008-08-15T21:41:00.003+08:00

So, did god finally stop your love for me ,
or did you managed to stop it yourself ?
>.<

meow-licious

2008-08-13T17:05:00.002+08:00

My current temperature is 39.0
This shows how hot I am.
>.<

MUMBO JUMBO.

2008-08-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

I am sick and tired of doing all those projects alone.
You guys are a bunch of pathetic slackers, ya know that ?
Furthermore, you guys receive marks/credits, for doing nothing ?
Fuckers. >.<

Mother-tongue oral tomorrow.
and I am already having butterflies in my stomach ?
Err, I wasn't suppose to get those butterflies now.
Okay, weird maan .

Ermm, today is Tuesday.
And I have already spent $20 on food + stationaries + a watch.
Which means that I have already spent 4/5 of my weekly money ?
OMFG, maybe what Azhar said was right.
Teenage Girls ARE implusive. hah

And By The Way,
HAPPY ADVANCED 14TH BIRTHDAY , RACHEL LEE ! ( 15 AUGUST )
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY, DANIAL ! (12 AUGUST)
HAPPY BELATED 14TH BIRTHDAY , FAHIMA ! (11 AUGUST)

HAPPY BELATED 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO MARIYA AND IRWANSHAH ! (11 AUGUST)
hope you guys last very very (extremely) long . .
in any case, much longer than me and ahmas aites (?)

Why am I afraid to lose you when you're not even mine ?

Smell-o-gram

2008-08-11T22:04:00.006+08:00

I LOVE ENGLISHMAN!
( see, I highlight your name with pink ah)

hah. lol
>.<

NEWS FLASH :
AMIRUL HAKIM IS GETTING A BREAST IMPLANTATION,
cause he feels awkward when he dance around girls.
so yeah, he said he was going to thailand,
and pay 2 million rupiah or whatever shit.
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.
ok, this is kinda lame.

till here, losers.

You're a fucker, ya know that ?

2008-08-10T21:27:00.003+08:00

Amirul (not my classmate hor) :
I am not going to talk to you until you decide to change your fucking attitude.
I will pretend to not see you eventhough you are in front of me.
I will pretend to not hear you whenever you speak to me.
I will pretend to not even know you at all.
Pfft. I hate you, and thats that.
you are one fucking moron for always pissing me off in school.

shhh, movie time.

2008-08-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

Dory : You mean ... you mean you don't like me?

Marlin : No, of course I like you. It's because I like you that I don't want to be with you.

It's a complicated emotion.

- Finding Nemo

2008-08-08T20:56:00.006+08:00

2008-08-08T18:12:00.007+08:00

Presenting : Fucker of the day.

2008-08-06T20:22:00.009+08:00

How could you play this game of pretend and play the part of a friend?
How could you be so thoughtless, how could you want this all to end?
How could you pull the floor from beneath me when I just learned how to stand?
Please, could you just explain this to me, Because I don't understand..

Friends are being such a pain in the ass.
Especially this unreliable jerk, _ _ _ _ _ _. (not classmates ah)
He has been such a nuisance lately.
He's a good for nothing (insertword).
He only cares for himself. I repeat, h-i-m-s-e-l-f.
He's such a moron la.

It'll be amazing if that girl that he admires would turn him down.
hah. I am crueeel.
D:

Tsk
Probably, I''ll be busy for the whole of next week.
As usual, there will be more of those unexpected dance rehearsals.
plus activities.
]x

Speaking about dance rehearsals,I don't think I would want to perform a retro dance .
cause I'm like sooooooooooo shy to dance that in front of the whole school .
Like hello(?), who would actually want to make a fool of themselves on stage ,
plus having 200+ pairs of eyes watching you ?
seriously,I'd rather choose street jazz than retro.
0____________________0'

Oh, did I mention how great my academic results were ?
Like from the past few days. (:
I have been getting those A1s' for my
History,Geography,Maths plus Science.
Unbelievable, isn't it ?

Unfortunately, my parents aren't proud of me.
They (obviously) think that I didn't do well enough. -__-
Like what the hell, isn't A1 a nice grade ?(!!)
Furthermore, I studied hard for those tests.
Don't I at least deserve some fucking appreciation or praise ?

Moving on.
Remember the post about those digital pets that I have been craving for ?
hah. Now, I own two tamagotchi.
Hell yeaaaaaaaah.
I bought one for myself. and I received another one from Ahmas,
for our 1 year anniversary. (:
I can't believe that he was willing to buy that $40 gadget.
awwww, He was just being nice.
I think ?

But I am waaaaaay nicer,okay.
I gave him a cute big big teddy bear.
(and someone was jealous.) (:
I gave him a black watch.
I gave him a cap.
I gave him a beautiful bottle, full of those colourful stars.

I know I'm quite nice, right ? >.<
zZz. someone in school said that I'm rich .(?)
what in the world.. I'm not fucking rich.
Obviously.The gifts that I bought for him are only 100+ ?
Like tell me, who can't afford that kind of sum ?

In conclusion,
I think he would only like/love the cap.
Hah.

Omfg.
I regret for not putting my green file in my bag.
I regret for leaving my green file in the bus.
I regret for puting the card in the green file.
I regret for bringing the card to school.
I totally regret.

In the end, I lost the damn freaking card plus the green file.
The card really really means a lot to me. A LOT. ):
Including the file that contains my homeworks.* regretting

I hate secondary 1 guys/boys.
They are so immature. They have no respect for their seniors.
hah. Fucking idiots.

I still owe Englishman a double chocolate ice blended.
See, I have a great memory ah.
I repeat, g-r-e-a-t . (8

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
I love this week. excluding the part where I lost my green
file plus the special card that Englishman gave me.):
/gasp

You are the sun in my day, the wind in my sky,
the waves in my ocean and the beat in my heart.

2008-08-03T11:25:00.003+08:00

How could you look at me in the eye and say the cruelest of words?
How could you say you listened to me when you never really heard?
How could you stick this knife in my chest, then twist it where you wanted it to go?
Please answer me all these questions, I really need to know.

2008-08-02T12:03:00.004+08:00

"The sky has lost it's color, the sun has turned to grey,
at least that's how it feels to me, whenever you're away. "

Today was suppose to be a happy occasion.
But why doesn't anything go right ?

2008-08-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

Dear all,

I woke up early today.
My bedroom seems the same.
The veiw outside of my window seems the same.
The smell of breakfast coming up from the hall seems the same.
But I feel different.

Well, school has been a pain in the ass,
Teachers are expecting me and classmates to
be ready for that dance performance thingy.
zzz. lol
Classmates are beginning to bring those rubix cubes to school again.
Sympathetic, I know. 0_0
heh
By the end of the day, everyone in class is playing with the rubix cube.
By the end of the day, the teachers are asking everyone to stop it.
By the end of the day, I am over it. It was so second period.

I feel like I'm slacking in my cca . heh
Obviously, since there is nothing that we could do now,
except for playing games. and more games.
which involves in getting wet or making other people wet.

NEWS FLASH :
My 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY IS TOMORROW (!!)
see, everything occurs too fast including my anniversary.

I am P-I-S-S-E-D O-F-F.
What's the damn bloody point of reminding them
that I am busy tomorrow ?
They don't even give a damn shit about it.
Sometimes, I really regret to have such (stm) parents.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I need englishman now !

now now now !

If I could break this spell, I would run to him today.

2008-07-30T17:58:00.002+08:00

" And I know that he knows that I'm unfaithful.

And it kills him inside.

To know that I am happy with some other guy.

I can see him dying. "

If an animal is in a different environment, it is an alien.

If a person is in a different environment, she/he is considered as an alien.

I feel like an alien now.

And my friends are aliens to me.

Furthermore,

My day is turning out hopeless.

There is no one to hang out with.

Now, I am forced to find fun all on my own.

I love the sun for days, the moon for nights and you forever.

2008-07-28T19:57:00.002+08:00

"I cant explain the way I feel for you,
With any words I say or actions I do.
I don't know if you can really see.
That you mean everything to me."

Today sucks.
which means, everything that happened today totally sucks.

Well,
I have been sneezing and coughing on my way to school.
I find it hard to concentrate in class.
I have been having those (really) terrible headaches in school,
plus when I am in the middle of having swimming lessons.
I found out that, that (particular) someone had to went off early.
I realised that my ezlink card has something wrong with it,
and that totally ruins my whole day.

In addition, I bet tomorrow is not going to be a great day.
Cause I have no one to be with in the morning.

where's englishman when I need him ?

2008-07-27T20:27:00.002+08:00

I sneeze alot alot today.
I cough alot alot today.
I feel hot hot hot today.
& I have a temperature of 38.1°C.

So, I hereby conclude that I am offically having a fever.
}:

2008-07-26T10:17:00.002+08:00

" If my love to u could be described in drops of water, I would have drowned the World.
If it could be described in air molecules, I would have choked every living Creature,
and if it could be described in Sins, I would have made a Devil out of every Preacher. "

Recap.
I have malay dance rehearsals on Thursday.
Surprisingly, the 2T2 malay students (includingtheguys) were forced to join.
For starters, the guys are really good at basics.
as in, really (really) good. no kidding.

Then, had cd trainings on Friday.
On that typical day, someone gave me and besties those chocolate puddings .
It wasn't really that delicious/appetising.
So I decided to put those hello panda chocolate inside the pudding.
hah, I gave it to Amirul to try. He said it was nice.
He actually compliment my experiment.
(:

After trainings, went back with Muzakkhir.
realised that he (has) changed and found out that he has those
ncc camps coming up on this coming Monday.
boo hoo.

I cant hardly wait till I can finally be with you.

2008-07-22T20:39:00.003+08:00

"How can I forget you when your always on my mind ?
How can I not want you when your all I want inside ?
How can I let you go when I can't see us apart ?
How can I not love you when you control my heart ? "

Personally, Its amazing when you realised that your
close besties would actually side your boyfriend than you.
* sigh

I ain't gonna elaborate on the school part of the day,
as it will make you yawn and theres no need for me to do so.
So, lets start with the after school outing.

28-ed to Tampines Interchange with Fadliyana.
On the way, she talks about old school and stuffs.
hah, she's in gymnastic. can you believe it ? 0_0
Then she wanted to buy presents for her best friend's mum.
aww, she actually has the heart to buy for her best friend's mum
such expensive gifts. like wow.

While shopping,
I decided to go to the toys place.
zomg, I found the cute tamagotchi(version 5), the latest one
plus the littlest pet shop thingy. * freak out
That cute tamagotchi cost around 38+ bucks.
hah, I'm so buying it in 1 weeks time.
Or maybe, someone is willing to buy it for me ?
(:

After shopping,
went to macd at Tampines Mall.
Saw azhimah. For a secondary one student, she's (really) pretty.
Hah, then 28-ed to tmart with sonic.
In addition, decided to follow him back home
as it was still early for me to go home.
I am nice. (:

hah, sarcastic.

яаіму says (1:33 PM):
Oh. aku takleh luper kan dier ah shaik.
Hati aku tetap kat dier je.
I dunnno. Susah nak luperkan dier.
Im still loving her. I'll wait for her. till death came.

See, sweet eh dier.
xD

2008-07-20T15:31:00.007+08:00

CIP wasn't as tough as I thought.
I had to sell kit kats for charity, in the fairprice at e-hub.
Here how it goes.
Each pair was given a trolley full of kit-kats.
I repeat, F-U-L-L. There were a variety of them.
Firstly, we need to promote the kit kats to the consumers.
Hah. I hate promoting.

Well, for the ones who bought the kit kats. I salute you. (:

Woman : What are you kids doing ?
Me : Promoting/Selling chocolates, mdm.
Woman: Oh, so are these chocolates for free ?
Me and Fadliyana : -_______-"

How stupid was that ? hah

While promoting, I was like waiting for sonic to arrive.
waited for 2hours, and forced Fadliyana to call him.
Unfortunately, he said he couldn't make it.):
I was (really) sad okay.

Moving on,
Sir went to the fairprice to check on us.
hah, he brought along his baby too.
cute okays.
In addition, he even bought us some delicious cakes.
yummy, my sir very kind ah.

In the end,
we received this kit kat note book.
a chunky kit kat bar, and 4F kit kat from UK one.
(:

Next, 21-ed to Tampines Junior College with Fadliyana.
and went back home.

grrrrrrrrrr
I miss englishman.
a lot, a lot.

NEWS FLASH: TOMORROW IS RACIAL HARMONY DAY !

2008-07-19T21:23:00.004+08:00

Had this CD course for the whole day. 7am - 5.30pm. -_____-

Everything was about CPR. I nearly slept when it comes to the theory part.

It was really( really )boring. obviously.

But I managed to pay attention after a sudden thinking of englishman.

Hah. Yasmin slept through out the whole lecture,

and surprisingly, she didn't get caught/scolded.

Isn't that cool ? like seriously.

and she even managed to pass the

theory test without revising. I think ah.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I hate the graph part. like totally hate it.

I have to redo for 8 times. HAH.

cause I did the 5 cycles too fast.

damn it.

I AM LAZY TO ELABORATE ON THE OTHER TESTS.

*grins

Here comes the going-back-to-school part.

I tell you, my friends are damn horny.

every single one of them.

especially Zaki. lols

you should have seen him vibrating while listening to this horny song.

very the kekek sehs. hah

Then then,

went to kfc and got treated by Zaki and Fadliyana.

yays(: They very-the-kind.

In the end,

followed yasmin to shop & save.

and walked back home.

see, I exercise (by walking) ahhhhh.

How can I not get a heart attack ?

2008-07-18T21:17:00.002+08:00

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHS . .
I am craving for these digital games !
Damn, sounds childish uh ? (:
Someone please buy them for my birthday!
no wait, cancle ' birthday ' .
Someone please buy them for me ! ^^
Pretty please . .
Hah. what a laugh. lols.

DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN,
RACIAL HARMONY IS COMING !
AND I DON'T HAVE ANY OUTFITS TO CHOOSE YET !
FUCK AH.
On second thought, Fadliyana want us to be colour-coordinate.
Lols.

I (really) MISS ENGLISHMAN !
damn, I want/need to meet you.
N-O-W ! ! ! ]:

2008-07-16T22:04:00.005+08:00

"Seven days and seven nights of thunder.
The water's rising and I'm slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the eighth world wonder. "

Had a meet up with Raimy dearest. yays.
Met him at Afganistan.
28-ed to tmart. Mug a little for the upcoming History test.
Had small talks. and I was getting bored. (:
291-ed to Tampines Interchange.
Next,Raimy can't decide whether we should go to tm or cs first. hah
Well, the funny part was that,
Both of us were such a fool.
as we couldn't decide on where to go or what to do.

In the end,
28-ed back to tmart to accompany Raimy dearest back home.
Try forcing him to go back home but failed.
Eventually, he decided to wait for my bus.
Saw his friend, had those coffee talks.
and 28-ed back again to my place.

Note to self : I am missing you.

2008-07-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hello all,

Monday sucks.
Like I said earlier. .
I wasn't really looking forward to school.
I slept in english class.
I slack in maths class.
Basically, I didn't paid much attention in class. * yawn

and here comes Tuesday.
Today was a miracle maaaaan.
like seriously.
I really paid attention in ENGLISH class. HAH. First time.
I didn't do much in maths.
Science period was gross/scary/weird (?).
She showed us some videos, about conjoined twins and abortion.
Damn, the abortion video was (insertword). -__-
I find abortion is a cruel method,
cause its like killing/murdering another life. lol.

The rest of the periods was ______.
Had it enrichment after school. 3.00 - 5.00 . 0_0
But before that .
Try to prank call raimy,
But it didn't work. hah,

Then went to the comp lab.
It was Fadliyana's first lesson. D:
It didn't turn out as bad as I had expected.
I have :
2 hours of laughing and gagging.
2 hours of slacking.
2 hours of sitting on a chair facing the damn computer in a cold room.
2 hours of doing lectora( or whatever).
2 hours of yawning. (: HAH.

Fadliyana was cute maaaaaaaaan.
Got this one time,
she suddenly asked, " can I be compressed ? "
HAHA. such a stupid question seh.

Next,
Had to shut down the computers before we went off.
Then got this particular incident,
whereby me and Fadliyana had some kind of "electrical shock". HAH
due to the coldness and the electrical heat from the computer. lols.

zzzzzzz
TOMORROW IS CLASS PHOTO TAKING DAY !
yays ! ^^
( happy eh, happy eh )

This message is for RACHEL LEE :
eheeeeeeem,
I want my teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , you fucktard !
HAH. you whore ! ^^ zZz
( take that, rachel ! )

cause I thought you really love me.

2008-07-13T11:26:00.009+08:00

I want this few hours of no school to last F-O-R-E-V-E-R.
Cause I hate school.

I hate the animals in my school.
I hate the damn bloody rumors about me in school.
I hate fighting with my besties.
I hate science class.
I hate girls who loves to gossip about me.
I hate guys who always take/steal my things.
I hate walking to bedok interchange alone.
I hate being single out by those pathetic mats again and again.
:F

I bet transfering school would be a lot better.
Then I don't have to be with those animals.
Or see those mats again.

Damn _____.
For calling me a bitch.
For your information adek,
I am not a female dog. -_____________-

I am currently pissed off by ahmas.
For playing a stupid joke on me.
And my daddy.
For lecturing me on going to science class,
eventhough you know that I love maths and I hate science.
Not to forget my dear little sister.
For spoiling my handphone.

Furthermore,
Night time was a disaster.
I was being accused of stealing 50 bucks.
( oh, come on )
My father scolded/shouted at me like hell.
and my mum start lecturing.
They should have investigate first,
before accusing people.

grrrrrrrrrr,
my big sister kinda laugh at me.
damn, I'm having revenge on her.

Obviously,
It wasn't my fault that the 50 bucks was gone/missing/stolen or whatever shit.
Damn, I'm pissed.
It isn't fair when you get the blame for doing something that you didn't do.

cb. I hate today.
I think I'm on a curse or something.

Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now .

2008-07-11T23:51:00.008+08:00

It is 9 minutes to midnight ! * screams
and I am still chatting with englishman.
^^

2008-07-08T21:18:00.007+08:00

CLASSMATES

ni laa fadzli.

budak yang suker cari pasal. xD

FLOUR BABIES !

Rachel Fong's baby has those cute little eyes.

This baby(on top) won the most longest baby in class.

HAHA. lol

Mark' baby is a N-E-R-D !

Pinky, tabby and fahima junior.

presenting the couple of the day.

fuck ah fuck ah fuck ah.

HAHA !

2008-07-08T20:32:00.011+08:00

Had to bring flour baby to school today.
Haha. What a laugh.

This was how mine look like.
His name is TABBY.( Tear-bi )
like that ahh.

zmzg, isn't he cute ? (:

Here how my day goes.

went to school with muzakkhir.
as usual, he kept asking about raimy and stuffs. -_______-

then, meet up with Fadliyana and Fahima.
their flour babies are damn super cute. ^^
like seriously.
But Fadliyana's one is kinda nerdy BUT CUTE TOO.

everybody's flour baby is nice.
damn nice.
especially mine. x)

so yeah,
I couldn't wait for IT enrichment,
eventhough I know how boring it is.

Then then,
me,azrayna,shafiqah,fahima and adawiyah
played truth or dare during malay period.
Haha.It was a little boring,
cause none of us could come up with a question
when it comes to truth. 0_0

And there's this part where adawiyah had
to do something. ^^

azrayna ; I dare you to go to amirul and say that he has a sexy voice. * laughs.
anna ; *laughs, and you have to say it with a sexy tone.
shafiqah ; *laughs,
adawiyah ; wth. *facial expressions.

and I don't know what happened next. (:

Basically,
I totally slack when it comes to studies.
excluding maths. ^^

so yeah,had fun during malay period.
and when off to canteen before going to IT class.
Shafiqah skip ahh.
Haha.I had to lie when the teacher ask why fiqah didn't come.
then fahima was like, " sial uh, you're good at lying. "

theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen,
the whole class . .
well, 3/4 of the class practically slack the whole day.
as we couldn't use the computers
due to having an improper main switch or something ? lol

so, some decided to play with their flour babies.
Haha,my flour baby make friends ahhhhh.
see how friendly my flour baby is.
~ awwwwwwwwwww,
HAHA.cute ah.

abe lepas tu,
my flour baby camwhore dgn flour baby lain ahh.^^

pssssssssssssssssst;
my flour baby has got a secret admirer.
~ awwww. sweet uh. (:

Then got this incident kan,
Tabby and fahima junior fight.
serious.

abe lepas tu, dorang jadi teman balik.

yays(x

Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhh,
my tabby knows how to breakdance ahhhhhh !
cool ke perrrrrr ? ^^

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,
now, I am lazy to elaborate further.
bye ah bye ah bye ah.

2008-07-07T19:31:00.007+08:00

isn't onion head cute ?
like, seriously cute ?
I am so addicted to this cute thing. ^^

moving on.
Today, had a study group at white sands library
with englishman, zaki and marissa.
damn, should have bring along fadliyana.
D:

Then went to tmart.
Zaki suddenly bought for me mcflurry.
I was like " sial uh. orang da sakit, abe kasi mkn ice cream "
Haha, he didn't know that I was sick.
Then englishman and zaki kept pressuring me to
eat that mcflurry. -________-
They cute siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

zaki ; selagi tk makan, tk boleh balik. * laughs
englishman ; *laughs. mcm bdk2 sehs
me ; busted uh.

zaki said I only have to eat 1/3 of it.
which he changed into 1/2.
And practically all of it. lol

A few mintues later. .
the mcflurry turned into liquid form. 0_0
like wth.
zaki helped me finish 1/3 of the mcflurry.
Then he said I have to finish all of it.

But englishman decided to help me.
yays. ^^
He baik ahhhh.
next, went home at 6+ with zaki.

And now I am stuck with
' decorating ' my flour baby.
-______- fuck ah

With bittersweet pain, a spell that I can't explain.

2008-07-06T19:53:00.006+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
mummy bought me a new psp.
white in colour. awesome maaan.
and daddy bought me a headphone/headset.
yippies. I love my mummy and daddy. (:

Then went online.
and zaki started chatting with me.
He planned to have a mugging outing
tomorrow afternoon. ^^

And he asked me to ajak someone.
So, I decided to ajak englishman.
I terribly miss him maaan):

random conversation for today .

Ahmas: Busted. you think I free ah ?
Anna : No, I think you're cheap.haha, kene rabak seh. xD
Ahmas: Mataer saper jugak? Farhanah jugak.
Ahmas; son in law saper jugak ?Abdul Latif jugak. haha xD.
Anna : sial ah.kiter kene lagi rabak seh. busted !
Anna ; Tapi anak saper jugak ? si ABUBAKAR jugak !
Ahmas: Haha.grandchildren in law saper jugak? OMAR jugak.haha xD
Anna : cb. fine, kiter kalah): goodnight ahh sial ! gi kocok sudah ! D:

I did three things today; miss you, miss you, and miss you.

2008-07-05T16:11:00.003+08:00

I am hyper today,

and I have no idea why. ^^

Today was a blast.

Had a short meeting with muzakkhir.

Then had to went back home,

cause father wanted to see me.

Well,

It turns out that he wanted me

to fetch my lil sister from springfield sec.

And to antar my lil bro to tampines north pri.

like wth. -___-

In the end.

I was paid 20 bucks. HAHA

yays ! (:

I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.

2008-07-05T10:18:00.012+08:00

Yesterday was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

cause there's ncdcc.

But I wasn't feeling well at that moment.

So, I was being excuse from using uniform.

Then, all of the sec 2 except for _____ was being promoted.

Haha, amirul ngan nazif cam jakun gituk. xD

Next, played a game.

Alpha( Defender) v Bravo(Attacker).

Then Bravo won. wth.

Then, Bravo(Defender) v Alpha(Attacker).

Amirul amin busted seh.

kasi group kiter kalah. wtf.

Then Bravo won again. fuck uh.

HAHA.
Then went back with muzakkhir.
yays (:

In the world of black and white, you are my colour.

2008-07-01T15:17:00.003+08:00

Currently in comp lab . ^^

someone is fetching me home from school today.
yays !
(;

to him ;

HAPPY ADVANCE 11th MONTH ANNIVERSARY !
(:

2008-06-28T21:37:00.005+08:00

Today was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.
^^
Had a study outing in the afternoon,
with Sonic, twin and adek.

Firstly,
went to meet twin at her block.

Then,
went straight to library.
And saw adek.

haha
He was god damn early seh. (:

Next,
decided to wait for sonic at the bus stop.
we were practically looking for sonic
in every 291 and 28 that passes by.

Me and twin was like,
" Kalao dier tk sampai dlm 5 min, kiter bantai dier teruk2. "

Haha
Then twin keeps complaining that
adek keeps looking at her.
kekek sia satu satu.
^^
Then sonic arrived.
He is so ___. (:

So, we went in the library.
search for spaces to study.
In the end,
gave up and decided to go macd.

skip
skip
skip

we end up in macd at tamp mart.
mug there. mug here.
laugh there. laugh here.
:D

I couldn't mug
cause adek keeps making me laugh.
and I like to look at sonic. ^^

hoho
Then, went back home at 6+.
Out of the blue,
Sonic started running towards the new 291.
Then twin predicted that he will fall.
Haha,
she was right. (:

I think sonic's right/left leg was injured ?
cute sia him.
^^
Then sonic and adek went home first.
So, me and twin were alone.

Me ; itu sonic nye abang kan ?
Twin ; ermmm, yeah. HAHA.
Me ; wth ? HAHA. adek dier masuk, abang dier keluar. kekek nye.
Twin ; * laugh non stop. xD abe duer2 pakai baju putih.
Me ; * laughs
Me ; * stare and smile at his brother.

Haha.
my twin rocks laa seh.
:P

2008-06-28T09:34:00.006+08:00

I'm screwd):

I'm fallen
I cant find myself
I'm lost
But I am trying to be found

But i cant move
my heart is holding me back
I want to go
but its telling me to stay

Its telling me
you'll change back
you'll be better
but i cant see it

I want whats best for me
I can't be like this
you have hurt me so much
I dont know why i bother

I should have stayed away
When you left the first time
you were what i feared most
but i thought you wouldnt

you promised you wouldnt
but you did
and you didnt realize it
you went on like it didnt happen

but it did
more than enough
way too many times to count
and yet you still dont know

you and your dumb friends
they talk about me with you
and yet you dont care
you didnt care at all

Thanks for being a jerk
I thought you were perfect
but in turn i found out
who you really are

All those memories
All those times you were pretending
thanks for acting like you cared
thanks for not being there

I knew this would be bad
but I listened to my heart
and look where its gotten me
you took it

you broke it
you tore it into tiny pieces
till there was nothing to break
till i was a empty plastic doll

you left me hollow
you left me alone
you left me torn
you left me broken

I MISS SONIC.
(:

2008-06-21T10:43:00.002+08:00

zzzzzz
swimming lessons on monday.
bla bla bla.
-__-

school is coming in 2 more days.
I need help in maths.
anyone ?